I want to have a positive answer to one of my letter... So I can leave this fucking house and live on my own and earn my money. So I would stop feeling like it's the only thing my father wants So i'll stop feeling like I'm only here to waste his money. So I stop feeling everyday like he wished I never was born.
Ok... I woke up at 3 in the morning, fell asleep again at around 5, woke ou at 6:30 and then again at 7:30, and I was persuaded that it was 8:30, but no... it was 7, so I woke up... and baaaaaah I feel that my head weighs a tone!
a baby... well not really right now since i have no one to make it with... but before my 30s... that leaves me 7 years... It's just that today when I had my nephew in my arms, I felt like crying... this was so special... so beautiful... I want such a thing to happen in my life... and soon if possible